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I can't get my neck to stop hurting, no matter what I take. The job isn't helping much. The acid reflux and the cough just add to it... And I was having pain under my ribs and it wrapped around to my back. I felt so bad I was nearly tears... I'm so sick of hurting. I just want to crawl into a hole and cry until I have nothing left in me. Depression is setting in again. I can feel it. I don't know what to do anymore...



I come home from work, dishes not done, trash not out... First thing I did was take out trash. He sit in front of the tv and watched me. I'll be doing the dishes too. *sigh* I can't seem to get thru to him...



*shrugs* I hate who I am!!!

Had one a few weeks ago because of snow, this time it was sleet and ice. I'm not sure I'll even be able to get out of my drive way in the morning. We shall see I guess...



What is going on with me you ask?



Not much of anything. Same stuff different day. My life is so mundane anymore. To break the monotony I go to work. And I hate it there. Way too much drama and gossip mongrels. But what's a person to do?



Still have health issues. My feet are better and I'm walking normal at least. I had an ambulatory ph study done. One part of the test show my esophagus is inflammed. Dr told me being around cig smoke is deadly for me. Go back to the dr on the 25th to find out what the other test said. Has me worried to say the least. My neck is still killing me, but don't want surgery. So I'm at a stand still there. I was suppose to have a mammogram done yesterday but had to cancel because of the weather. I have to reschedule that. And I go to the gyn Monday to annual exam done. Can all ladies say "YAAA!" God I hate those. My b/p goes up every time that is how much I hate them. I also need to reschedule my other sleep study done, but I hate the thought of doing that as well. Oh, and I have this insistent cough I can't get rid of again. And I can hear me wheezing when I breath.



So Um, ya, definitely have health issues!!!



Horses are doing good. Onery as every though. Lea will be coming home soon, just not sure when yet. Nephew will let me know I guess...



Ok, my neck is hurting, I have to find something else to do, even if it's wrong!